Sleepless Nights...

1:55 Am

Our Video call ended...

Every nite...

We chat online...
We video call...

I love it...

Well...
At least i get t0 see u...

I miss U...
Darlin...
Yes...
I miss U s0 much...

Its only 2 weeks...
And its KILLING me...
I can't imagine when u leave...
I can't imagine when u're not around anymore...

I can't...

I knw...
By that time...
I'll hav to be strong...
I'll hav to be all on my own...
I'll hav 2 try not to think of u too much...
I'll try concentrate fully on my studies...
Making myself busy...
Make myself not to think of U...
I can't bare a second thinking of U not around me...
Makes me feel so empty inside...

I can't sleep...

Sleepless nite is all i hav...
This stupid Semester break is KILLING me....
I can't wait to g0 back...
T0 the t0wn where i can see U...
T0 the town where U'll always by my side whenever i need U...

I miss U...
SO MUCH....

I can't sleep...

When i was just about to fall asleep...
S0me words of urs came to my mind...

"U'll have t0 g0 on with ur life without me..."

U 0nce said that...
I dun remember when was it...
But i knew u did said that...
I knw i promise u not to cry...

But

U never knew that i cry myself to bed every night...
S0 scare to lose u...
S0 scare that u'll leave me...
I've done so many bad things to ppl...
I regretted d0ing all those stuff t0 others...
Now i reli knw how it feels..
How it feels t0 LOVE someone...
Only when i meet U...
Only U care...
Only U care that much...
More than anyone else...

Now...
I'm brave enuf to tell...
To tell U that...

I
LOVE
YOU

Yes...
I d0...
I reli love U...

All these Sleepless nites...
Is making me so weak...
I'm weak...
I'm so weak...
I'm s0 weak...
I'm so tired...
I need s0me sleep...

I dun wanna imagine U leaving...
I dun wanna think bout it...
I just wanna spent as many time as i can with u...
T0 make new memories...
T0 have memories i can recall when u're not around...

Just be mine f0r as long as U can...

Please...

Dun let g0...

Please...

Hold on as long as U can...
I'll promise anything U ask...
I'll be a g0od girl...

Please...

Just stay...

Please...

I need U...

* huGgiEs^ tight *

Hold on tight...
Never let U g0...
NEVER... ... ...

Still counting away....

Yo y0 Yo...
Check it out y0...

Hahaha...

Yup...
Still c0unting away...
4 m0re days t0 g0...

Yeah...

Another 4 days...
I'll be leaving home t0wn...
G0ing back t0 Kuching...
Starting a wh0le new semester...

Ya ya ya...
My second semester in my c0llege....

Huhu...

Can't wait f0r it...
New students are g0ing t0 c0me...
U knw wat that mean?

Ya....

I'm g0nna be SENI0R next sem...
Wakaka...

Aduh...
Whatever la...
New student c0me in d0esn't mean that will be younger than me...

Duh...
Hehe...
Nvm...

I'm still senior ....
They'll hav t0 respect me...
Haha...

Wahaha...

T0day...
I went back t0 my secondary sch...

SM Meth0dist...

Went there t0 get me photostatted SPM result slip verified...
2moro hav t0 g0 again...
My Ex-f0rm teacher t0ld me I hav a new result slip...
F0r the LCCI thingy...
If not mistaken...

Duh...

S0 hav t0 g0 back 2moro to exchange my result slip...
And get the new 1 photostatted n verified AGAIN...

Haiz...

Thats all f0r t0day...
Thank you f0r reading....



* huGgiEs^ tight *

My lunch and Dinner... -28th April-

Zhao Chai Prawn Soup...
Haha...
One of my Favorite...
Yum yum...
Nice...
A bit sour...
A bit spicy...

Nice...

Aha...
Bee hoon...
Add Zhao Chai Soup to this...

Then c0ok t0gether f0r a while...
Let it b0il...
Let the bee hoon soften and absorb the taste of the s0up...

Tada.......
End product...
Yummy...
Hehe...
Zhao Chai Bee Hoon Soup...

Dinner ready...
Ya...
Same...
Dinner we oso eat Zhao Chai Bee Hoon soup...

Huhuhu...

* huGgiEs^ tight *

SunDay - Last Nite & T0day... - 28th April -

As i promise t0 u, Dear readers...
I've uploaded s0me photo of my Church...
Enjoy...

W0w...
All th0se people wh0 love GOD...
Wake up early on Sunday morning t0 c0me to Church...
This is only partially...
Hehe...
My Church t0o big...
Can't take the picture of the wh0le church...

This is the outside view of my church from where i sit...

Lolx...
This picture shows my mum...
Buying bao from somewhere...
Erm..
Dun knw the name of that road...
Thats last nite...
After we went for a walk at Pasar malam (nite market)...
On our way home...
We stop by the road t0 buy Bao (bun)...

Yo Yo Yo...
My highlight...
Haiz...
Suppose to be white...
Haiz...
Nvm...
Still look nice...
Hehe...

My Darlin...
* MUACKS^ *...
Haha...
Snapshot from skype...
I love it...
Hehe...
Sh0win the LOVE...

Darl...
I
LOVE
YOU
!!!!



Still counting the days to g0 back t0 Kuching...
5 M0re days...

Haiz...

Miss my friends...
Miss my Darl...

Haiz...

New semester is coming...

0 ya...
Heard from my Darl...
Saying tat t0day...
Our final exam's result is out...

Haiz...

W0nder how's my result...
H0pe all pass...
Nothing m0re...
All pass is enuf le...
S0 restless...
My result...

Can't wait t0 g0 back...

>.<



*huGgiEs^ tight*

C0unting days t0 g0 back t0 Kuching... >.<

Another 6 m0re days...
C0unting days t0 g0 back t0 Kuching...

Another b0ring days...

N0 friends...
N0 school...
N0thing t0 d0...

Haiz...

B0RING
B0RING
B0RING

WARNING !!! Get 0ut 0f my life if U dun like me...!!!!! FXXX you...!!!

As u can see...
The above picture sh0ws 1 0f my " best " friend...

Fxxx Her...
She's a back stabbing Bitch...

Well...
I dun think the w0rd Bitch suits her...
She's a SLUG...!!!!

Well...
This is a warning t0 all my friends...
If u dun like me...!!!
Just tell me...
I dun mind...
Fxxx whoever back stab me...!!!

If u dun have the guts to tell me u hate me...
Just walk away from my life...
I wont force u t0 like me...
I'm fine with0ut all th0se fxxking back stabbing FRIENDS...!!!

I
HATE
PPL
WHO
BACK STAB
FXXX Y0U!!!!!

Get 0ut 0f my life if u like t0 back stab s0 much...
U hate me just becuz U're jealous...
Can't u find sumthing better t0 d0 0ther than talking behind ppl...
Spoililng 0ther ppl's reputation will 0s0 spoil ur owns'
S0 think twice bef0re d0ing it...

Els...!!!
U posted my pic in ur blog n written bout me...
And act like nothing happen in front of me...
I fxxking dun like U...!!!
FAKER...!!!!

26th April - New Hair Style + BAD news -

T0day
I went to Church with my parents...
Since ages i din't went to church...

I'll upload some photo i took SOON...
Hehe...

After going to church...
I went breakfast with my parents and aunties...

After breakfast, around 8:45 Am...
Me and my parents went to Sarikei...
I went to Sarikei to get a new hair cut and new hair colour...

I colour my hair with
Blue black base and
SUPPOSE T0 BE white highlight...

Well...

In the end...

The highlight turn out to be...
A bit greyish+blone+blue...

Haiz...
Nevermind...

AND


NOOOOOooooooo......!!!!!!

Mum postpone the date going back to Kuching...
ARGH...!!!!

Have t0 stay f0r another one week...
Going back Kuching on 3rd of May...

Haiz...

I WANNA G0 BACK LA....!!!

Wuwuwu...


I
MISS
HIM
DEADLY
!!!!!!!


* huGgiEs^ tight *

25th April 2009 - N0thing Special -

6 more days...
Another 6 days and I'll be heading back to Kuching...
After 6 days...
I'll be starting another whole new semester...
2nd semester of my course...
2nd semester of my college life...
A whole new semester...
A whole new start...
New students are coming in...
I'll g0nna be a senior when semester starts...
LOLX...
Haiz...
Wonder what kind of ppl will i meet when a whole new sem starts...
Haha...
I dun care...
Just focus on my studies...
All on my own...
Most of my frens are moving out of hostel when 2nd sem starts...
Then i'll be all alone...
Its ok...
That means I can make more new friends...
New Semester...
New start...
PERHAPS...
A NEW ME...
Lolx...
O ya...
Tomorrow i'll be going to Sarikei...
HAHAHA...
Going to get a new hair do...
Erm...
Maybe...
Something different...
But not much changes...
Hehe...
Can't wait to go back to Kuching...
MISS all my frens...



* huGgiEs^ tight *

About Dream...

Dream...
Dream...
Dream...
I dun like dream...
If its g0od then its ok...
I dun like dreaming bout bad stuff...
My dream...
Its owes bout things tat gonna happen to me...
Or ppl around me...
I dun like it...
I dun wan it to be exactly the same as my dream...
I wan it to be opposite...
I mean if its bad...
I dun wan him 2 leave me...
But I knw...
1 day...
He will...



* huGgiEs^ tight*

I'll never let g0...

Until the day you let g0...

home

hate staying home...
i miss my college life...
wanna go back as soon as possible...
so boring here...
no place to go...
no frens to hang out with...
boring...
boring...
boring...

Darl ...
I
MISS
U


*huGgiEs^*