A sharing of thoughts~ ^^

Sometimes while I'm browsing through some friend's FB

I see people get in a relationship I feel happy for them...

Sometimes I see them went from in a relationship to single...

It make me feel sad...

But sometimes from their wall post I see that they can still be happy with the way it is and move on with their life...

It make me imagine how much tears has they lost...

How much pain do they feel...

Even with a smile on the face,I know its really aching inside =(

It really take a lot of courage to let go of the one you love and still put a smile on face and move on...

It its me...

I would cry like hell...

Get drunk...

Get hurt...

To release the pain in me...

I know its not good but still I will do it...

Because even the one I love and care so much has left me...

Who cares anyway what happen to me...

Ya,

You people might think that I'm very negative...

well I am =)

I'm very very negative~

I tend to think a lot...

If if if...

Bla bla bla~

Well~

Thats ME~

For those out there who has just got a broken heart ...

I feel sorry for u guys~

Well everything still has to go on...

Don't be afraid to cry...

After crying really can make you feel better ^^

SMILE and move on~

There is always someone waiting for you at the next junction ^^

It has been almost 2 months that you've left to Mel...

And we've gone thru so many within this two months...

I know I can trust you...

But sometimes I'm just so scare...

There is always so many what if . . . . thats come into my mind...

I can't imagine my life if I lose you,DarliN...

I've got too far I cannot take it back anymore...

I cannot restrain myself from loving you anymore...

Now all I can do is to trust you and believe that we will be together till the end...

I am very confirm that if this relationship doesn't work out the way I want it to be...

If one day we really go on a seperate ways....

I would not live to see another day...

I love you too much that I would rather DIE if I cannot have you...

Can you know how much I love you?

Why do I always cry?

Because I love you...

Why do I always argue?

Because I care...

Why do I think of so many "What if?"

Because I'm scare...

DarliN,

If you read wat I've wrote...

All I want you to know is that...

I really love you with all my heart and you have all my trust...

I love you........very much...

And I miss you so badly...

Been thinking of you since the day we start dating...

Never once I didn't think of you...

I miss you,baby~

Miss you so very much...

T^T

好想听你的声音

好想打电话给你

好想哭求你回来

但是我知道

我不可以

我不可以自私

好想大声的哭

把所有的一切哭出来

但是哭了

又有谁能了解

我心里的空虚感

哭了

又能填补我心里的空虚吗？

哭了

累了

坚强了

宝贝，我想你了

Darl =(
I knw you're busy with life in Aus
I knw you're dealing with lots of problem
But please
Once in a while
Give me some time
Say that you love me without me saying it first
Say that you miss me
Show that you care

I miss you so damn much ='(
But I couldn't tell
I couldn't show
Because I don't want to be a burden to you
I don't want you to be fed up with me

I love you
I always will

感动心灵.....宝贝!都是我的错!

男孩爱上了一个女孩,女孩也很喜欢他,渐渐的两个人走到了一起,同居了,当男孩的嘴第一次吻到女孩的唇时,女孩就决定这一辈子都跟定他了,于是女孩调皮的问:"你会爱我多久?"男孩捏着女孩的鼻子温柔的说:"你想要多久呢?" 女孩想了想天真的说:"那就一辈子吧,这一辈子你都不许喜欢别的女孩!"男孩笑着说:"嗯,好!"女孩又想了想嘟起小嘴:"不行!我不信你,我们拉勾勾,你要是反悔的话我到时候就杀了你!!!"男孩认真的回答:"好,假如有一天我背叛你,你就杀了我."...........

　　就这样男孩和女孩在一起快三年了,他们彼此都深爱着对 方,可是天总是不如人愿,厄运终于降临在这对幸福的恋人 身上,渐渐的男孩对女孩开始逃避,冷落.再也不像以前那 么宠她了,女孩似乎觉察到了什么,于是就开始追问男孩, 可是男孩却没有说出原因,终于有一天,男孩突然带回一个既 时尚又性感还很漂亮的女人回来了,这时女孩还想骗自己, 就傻傻的问:"宝贝这是你的朋友吗???"男孩冷酷的说:" 是!而且是女朋友."女孩听了没有做任何反应,只是傻 傻的坐在那里,女孩不敢抬头看男孩,因为她怕眼泪会忍不 住的掉下来;她不想让男孩看到自己哭,因为她仍然相信男 孩还爱她."这时男孩冷冷的说:"今天晚上你在这里, 明天你搬走吧,今天我们两个出去住."说着两个人就想往外 走."等一下."女孩终于开口了,"姐姐你能不能出去一 下,我想单独和他谈."那女人点点头走了出去.男孩依然 背对着她,谁也没有说话;"为什么"女孩最先打破了沉默. 男孩冷漠的说:"不爱了,就不需要任何理由!"然后掉 头就走了；没有给女孩任何机会.女孩哭了,她告诉自己不 准掉一滴眼泪,可是那晶莹的泪花还是不听话的掉了下来........


过了好久,女孩再次见到男孩的时候,是在医院里,不同的是 两个人都瘦的不成样子了,女孩是因为伤心,想他得了胃炎, 而男孩怎么会在医院里出现呢??女孩因为心里仍然爱他,放 心不下,于是就悄悄的跟了上去.....

"病人如果再找不到合适的心脏进行移植,那我们将再也没有 能力维持他的生命了"医生对女人说,这时女孩惊呆了,傻 傻的楞在那里,女人哭了,女孩也哭了,女孩再一次为男孩 流下了泪水 ,可是这一次比上一次更加伤心,更加歇斯底里,女孩痴痴的 坐在窗前眼泪不停的往下掉,突然她站了起来,走到桌前拿 起笔在纸上写了一些东西,然后她笑着拿起手机拨通了男孩 的电话,"喂"接电话的是个女的,"你好我想见见他可以 吗???求你给我这次机会好吗?"女人钝了钝说:"好吧. 在哪里,我转告他.""在我们第一次见面的公园,谢谢" 女孩挂掉电话后就匆忙的出去了.男孩如约来到了他们初次见 面的公园,可是过了好久女孩还是没有出现,男孩焦急的等 着,最后女孩还是没有出现,男孩失落的走了,女孩看着男孩远 去的背影,对自己说,不可以舍不得.......

过了几天男孩要进行心脏移植了,他兴奋的对女人说:"如果 成功了,我要做的第一件事就是去找她,告诉她事实."女人笑 了笑"但愿她不会拒绝你."......

男孩心脏真的移植成功了,他一醒来就忙着给女孩打电话,可 是却没人接,一次,两次,三次......男孩就这样一 直打,可是一直都没有人接,男孩沮丧的说:"她真的生气 了."女人安慰说;"不会的,她可能有事...

这时医生走进来笑着说;"你的命可真好,昨天那个女孩的遗 嘱点名要把心脏捐给你.她好像事先预料到自己要死,还写 了份遗嘱.""她是怎么死的."男孩问到."车祸,不过 真是可惜了,那女孩长的就跟个水晶娃娃似的,不知道怎么会出 这种事,听肇事司机说她是自己撞过来的@!"

这时男孩要求说:"我想去看看救我的人."医生迟疑了一下 点点头,"就是这个了.你们看吧.她的死像并不可怕,和 睡着了一样."男孩缓缓的揭开了盖在死者头上的白布,在 看到死者脸的一刹那,男孩和女人都僵在了那里,恍惚间男 孩的心疼了一下,他像疯了一样扯下死者身上的白布,哭喊 着"怎么会这样,不会的!宝贝你起来呀不要吓我!!!不 可能的.姐我在做梦对不对???你告诉我!!!宝贝我要 得不是这样.你快醒醒呀宝贝!"女人扯过男孩给了他一耳 光,流着泪说:"你醒醒吧!"要不是你她怎么会这样,是你害 了她!她是在用她的生命去爱你!"....

男孩呆呆的看着女孩眼神变得异常温柔,他看到女孩嘴角还带 着笑,笑得那么从容,男孩又一次哭了.看着女孩那还有点 点血迹的衣服,看着她那白的像雪的手,突然男孩发现女孩 的手里攥着一团纸,打开一看是女孩写给自己的信:亲爱的, 对不起,请你不要怪我好吗?我真的好爱你,那天你在公园等 我,我去了,只是没有露面,我就在你身后, 我想把你的一切牢牢的记在心里,因为我想下辈子我们还能在一起,虽然你这辈子没有履行诺言,但是我不怪你,因为我真的好爱你,即使你不在爱我,可是我的心会在你的身体里面一辈子,这个位置是任何人都占据不了的.亲爱的,一定要幸福哦.我把我的幸福全部都给了你,但是你下辈子一定要让我幸福,好吗?亲爱的,答应我下辈子不要再抛弃我了好吗?今生的诺言我们来世再履行.亲爱的,再见了,祝你幸福...

"不,宝贝,没有你我要怎么幸福!你醒过来好吗?我们从新 开始,我错了,对不起,我从来都没有不爱你,宝贝!我.. 错了!....你回来呀"男孩失声痛哭起来.这时正有个灵 魂坐在他的身旁流着泪,高兴的说:"原来你还爱我, 你一直都爱着我 ."灵魂试图抱住男孩,可是却在他的身体里穿过...... 天下起了小雨,男孩哭了,灵魂哭了,上帝也哭了....